incoherent, garbled thoughts

Dear 3,

There are so many things I would like to tell you.

Thank you for tolerating my insanity. Weird, but I love to bug you everyday, every moment, actually.

Will I ever be your option A? You have no idea how much it hurts when I listen to your stories about her – the girl you have always loved.  Will you ever let go of your feelings for her?

In the end, I know you will still chase after her. And I will be left here alone. But it’s alright, believe me if I say that I am happy for you. Your happiness will always be mine too.

Meantime, here is a song I would love to sing to you.

I hate you I love you

I hate that I love you

Don’t want to, but I can’t put

Nobody else above you 

I hate you I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I’ll never be her