incoherent, garbled thoughts

Dear 3,

There are so many things I would like to tell you.

Thank you for tolerating my insanity. Weird, but I love to bug you everyday, every moment, actually.

Will I ever be your option A? You have no idea how much it hurts when I listen to your stories about her – the girl you have always loved.  Will you ever let go of your feelings for her?

In the end, I know you will still chase after her. And I will be left here alone. But it’s alright, believe me if I say that I am happy for you. Your happiness will always be mine too.

Meantime, here is a song I would love to sing to you.

I hate you I love you

I hate that I love you

Don’t want to, but I can’t put

Nobody else above you 

I hate you I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I’ll never be her


One thought on “incoherent, garbled thoughts

  1. Awww. 😦
    Hopefully C can read this and realize what she’s been missing out on.
    There’s this song called Stone Cold by Demi Lovato. The lyrics perfectly sums up what you feel right now.
    Hope you feel better! Virtual hugs from AA here. 🙂


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